Friday I was having some mild cramping and pulling but I thought it was all normal. I was tired and felt crappy but I thought it was from hardly sleeping the night before. I slept most of Friday evening and when I woke up Saturday morning me and the bed were covered in bright red blood. I quickly ran to the bathroom and washed up. Hubby threw the sheets and comforter in the wash and we went to the ER by 10am. They did ultrasounds and blood work. All three heartbeats were there. A-152bpm B-115bpm C-142bpm They could tell the bleeding was from Baby B. It was really obvious I was miscarrying B. By 2pm ultrasound - Baby B's heart was no longer beating. Baby A & C's heart rate was 141 for both. I was able to go home by 5pm on bed rest and just spent on the couch at my dads house. We came home yesterday evening and I went straight to bed. This morning I got a call from my high risk ob nurse and she said the FT screen showed 1/250 chance that one of the babies has downs. I have a follow up with my high risk late this afternoon.
In a way I feel blessed and yet cursed at the same time. As horrible as it may sound I am glad that I miscarried now, rather then in a month or two and end up burying 3 children. I feel very blessed to still be pregnant and that A & C survived it, that I know of. That is the reason of todays follow up appointment. It wont be with my regular high risk ob as he is in the hospital doing 2 planned c-sections but it will be with this other high risk ob chick.
If one of the babies or heck both of the babies has downs. I will be happy just to have them in my arms knowing that they are safe and out of my body that has been the reason of all of this.
Hubby went into work and to my surprise he took 2 weeks leave of absence and on his way home he brought a bunch of balloon. We each wrote a note to B who we are now calling Emilie Alyssa. Hubby feels very strong that B was a girl and to help him, she can be a girl.
I am going to change my layout and change a few things around and keep my mind busy.
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