Tuesday, October 7, 2008

B is now with our other 6 Angels!

Friday I was having some mild cramping and pulling but I thought it was all normal. I was tired and felt crappy but I thought it was from hardly sleeping the night before. I slept most of Friday evening and when I woke up Saturday morning me and the bed were covered in bright red blood. I quickly ran to the bathroom and washed up. Hubby threw the sheets and comforter in the wash and we went to the ER by 10am. They did ultrasounds and blood work. All three heartbeats were there. A-152bpm B-115bpm C-142bpm They could tell the bleeding was from Baby B. It was really obvious I was miscarrying B. By 2pm ultrasound - Baby B's heart was no longer beating. Baby A & C's heart rate was 141 for both. I was able to go home by 5pm on bed rest and just spent on the couch at my dads house. We came home yesterday evening and I went straight to bed. This morning I got a call from my high risk ob nurse and she said the FT screen showed 1/250 chance that one of the babies has downs. I have a follow up with my high risk late this afternoon.
In a way I feel blessed and yet cursed at the same time. As horrible as it may sound I am glad that I miscarried now, rather then in a month or two and end up burying 3 children. I feel very blessed to still be pregnant and that A & C survived it, that I know of. That is the reason of todays follow up appointment. It wont be with my regular high risk ob as he is in the hospital doing 2 planned c-sections but it will be with this other high risk ob chick.
If one of the babies or heck both of the babies has downs. I will be happy just to have them in my arms knowing that they are safe and out of my body that has been the reason of all of this.
Hubby went into work and to my surprise he took 2 weeks leave of absence and on his way home he brought a bunch of balloon. We each wrote a note to B who we are now calling Emilie Alyssa. Hubby feels very strong that B was a girl and to help him, she can be a girl.
I am going to change my layout and change a few things around and keep my mind busy.

12 comments:

Sisrea said...

i have been lurking on your blog for a little bit from TWW, and wanted to check up on you.. I'm soo sorry for you loss of baby B. My thoughts are with you and your other 2 babies to be strong!! Sounds like DH is totally awesome and a support for you.

Amy (MyColonyNJ) said...

Oh no! - My heart breaks for you. I will continue to pray for A & C.

{{HUGS}}

The White Family said...

Bless your heart and soul. I'm so terribly sorry for what your going through and your loss. You are such a strong woman and I admire that so much. You have a wonderful husband. Please keep us updated on what you find out.

Love, The Whites

Mandy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I have a friend who helped me through my m/c and she told me something that really touched me. She feels that there are so many babies out there who are not loved, and every baby needs someone to love it. And from the minute mine was conceived I loved more than anything I thought possible. And when that baby went to heaven it went loved and charished by it's parents. I wish my situation would have been different, but I loved that baby, and it is in a good place. I am fortunite to be pregnant again, so I understand you feeling fortunite, but grieving at the same time. If you need anything, please let me know. Lot of Hugs and prayers coming your way!!

Lauren said...

I a so very sorry about the baby. She will always be remember! I am going to pray for you and both of the other babies. I pray that they stay stong and healthy. Keep us posted, and good luck at your apponitment today.

Anonymous said...

We all know that little Emilie Alyssa will be loved forever as the oldest of the triplets. Take care of you and somehow we have to have faith that God will take care of everything else.

Give everyone a big hug, snuggle down and sleep well!

Grannie in Florida

Ali said...

So terribly sorry to hear about the loss of 'B'. I will pray for your family, and for A & C. I can't imagine the pain that you are going through! But you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Heather said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

Kymberli said...

I'm so very sorry. I've been reading along this whole time (so sorry for not commenting), and I was devastated to read about baby B. I'm keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

Annie said...

I'm so sorry...wish I had the right words to take away the pain. Keep taking care of yourself in every way possible to keep those other two beautiful babies healthy. Your family is in my thoughts! Any more updates on the downsyndrome?

Steve and Roxy said...

Oh My Gosh! I am so sorry to hear about baby B! I am glad your other two are doing well... as far as those test results, they can be a false negative!!! Keep the faith girl! I'm thinking of you!

Shannon said...

I'm so sorry about Emilie. And I'm so thankful that the other two are doing well. Hugs for you and your hubs!